Pantagria is a character that I had a lot of fun writing in The Voyage of the Minotaur. Then she didn’t appear again. So when I got a chance to write her in The Young Sorceress, I was very pleased. She’s showing up again in The Sorceress and her Lovers.
The idea for Pantagria comes from a story I wrote when I was in High School. In that story, I had the same setting– the field of purple eyeball flowers– and the same kind of ethereal tone. The genders were reverse though. The person living in the field was a male and the visitor from the real world was female. The character didn’t have a name then. When I needed a magical setting for users of the magical drug to visit, I just pulled that setting and character out of the back of my brain.
Here is Pantagria with Yuah in The Young Sorceress. I try to get at least one Shakespeare line somewhere in my stories. This one is pretty easy to spot.
“Why are you here?”
On a large flat rock in the middle of an endless field of purple flowers, the two women faced each other. They were both beautiful and they both stood naked beneath the warming rays of the noon day sun. One was thin and pale, with dark hair and large expressive brown eyes. The other was muscular, toned, and tan, her long blond hair cascaded down her shoulders, impossibly thick, almost to her waist; with wings that stretched twelve feet from tip to tip, covered in feathers as white as the clouds.
“Why are you here?” Pantagria repeated.
“I’m here because I’m ‘seeing’.”
“Then that brings us to an entirely different question. Why are you seeing?”
“I don’t know.”
“You didn’t want Pantagruel.”
Yuah shivered at the memory. “Who would want that monster?”
“He is what many women want. He is who they come to see when they use the ‘see spice’.”
“How could anyone want that monster?”
“He is what your mind makes him. In fact, he is a perfect reflection of what your mind makes him. You see a monster. Another woman sees a prince—a perfect prince. But you didn’t come seeking perfection, did you? You don’t even want perfection. If you wanted perfection, you would have never wanted our Terrence, would you?”
“Don’t speak of him!” Yuah’s hand became a claw with which she threatened to lash out. “Don’t you dare say his name!”
“I loved Terrence,” Pantagria hissed, her eyes taking an evil gleam. “Forty thousand dressing maids with all their quantity of love could not equal my sum!”
“I am not a dressing maid. I am Mrs. Terrence Lucius Virgil Dechantagne! And you… You’re nothing! Nothing! You’re not even real!” Yuah burst into a fit of tears.
Pantagria laughed in her face.
“You little fool. He didn’t love you any more than he loved me.”
“You’re evil!” wailed Yuah. “Why did you have to have him? Why did you have to ruin him? Why did you have to steal him away from me?”
“I didn’t go looking for him. I couldn’t even if I wanted to. He came to me. He came to me just the way you have.” Pantagria slowly circled the other woman. “He came to me because he wanted something perfect. It’s why all men come to me. And it’s why women come to Pantagruel. But not you.” She stopped in front of Yuah. “You don’t want either of us. You don’t want something perfect.”
Yuah dropped her hands to her sides and sobbed uncontrollably.
“So, what do you want?”
“I don’t want… anything.”
“Then you have picked a particularly horrible way to commit suicide.”
Yuah’s shoulders shook.
“Stop your crying,” ordered Pantagria. “Stop it!”
Grasping Yuah’s hair, Pantagria pulled her head up and slapped her across the face.
“Wake up. Yuah wake up.” Mrs. Colbshallow slapped Yuah gently across the cheek again.
Yuah struggled to lift her head and look around. She was lying in the empty bath tub. Her limbs were numb.
“I knew this tub was a bad idea,” said Mrs. Colbshallow. “Cissy! Get in here and bring a blanket!
The reptilian arrived with a blanket, and wrapping it around Yuah, carried the woman upstairs to her bedroom. Placing her on her bed, and throwing a quilt over her, Cissy crossed the room to the fireplace and struck a match, lighting the tinder that had already been arranged amid the kindling and fuel. By the time she had turned around, Mrs. Colbshallow was handing Yuah a cup of steaming tea.
“What are you doing lying in the tub?” she asked. “That room is too cold and you have a perfectly good bed right here.”
Yuah didn’t reply. She simply sipped the tea, her eyes closed.